(These are wicked scars, but I know I'll be alright) (As long as I can stop the bleeding) (And it's a bitter world, but I know that I'll get by) (As long as I can find a reason) Am I confessing this too soon? Well I guess we will find out. And I know you’ve had your doubts about me. It’s funny I’ve had those same doubts myself. ‘Cause in a world that moves At a breakneck speed, My spine is never prepared for the stress. And since I don’t quite understand Where I’m going, It gets hard to ever progress. And that is where I’ll find Some hope to hide my doubts inside. I’ll try to live behind this weak And crumbling disguise. And when my courage fades, I’ll drag myself out of its grave. And fade into this daydream, Knowing that I may never wake. (I may never wake) Something is worrying you now, I beg you keep it away from me. Because I feel like I am worried enough, And your worries don’t bode too Well for this daydream. So I’ll cast you out, So I will not have to face the truth. I am far too weak To open the door of my heart for you. And that is where I’ll find Some hope to hide my doubts inside. I’ll try to live behind this weak And crumbling disguise. And when my courage fades, I’ll drag myself out of its grave. And fade into this daydream, Knowing that I may never wake. (I may never wake) (I may never wake) Time wait. I’m just not ready. I feel like I’m afflicted with this Insanity. And it’s getting the best of me. I’m okay, though My mind’s a bit unsteady. I guess it’s slow adjusting to the change. So I will shun those parts of me. I don’t know where I’m headed, But I know I have to leave. Am I insane? My conscience seems to have abandoned me. I must have lost it in the darkness When I couldn’t see. ‘Cause I was unaware, Caught in the snare of a daydream. I look all around, Though I can’t tell where it has dropped. There are too many lines I crossed When I should have stopped. I check at every danger sign That I ignored or fought. Maybe when I dipped into my darkness It did not. And I cannot believe, That I could act so selfishly. These thoughts are not of me. So I will take my leave, I’m tired of this daydream. There must be something more in store for me. Or is it just insanity? Or is it just insanity? Or is it just insanity?

Escape, Seemed like just a thing of fantasy, But the more I drew it closer, the impact of it only seemed to Break Down every wall I thought I’d built up strong, But oh how they have crumbled. The journey waits unwandered, Its conclusion still unknown, And my heart lies on the path that it has shown. But this road that I’ve invented, Is dark and weary too. It’s a venture that I’d never wish to wish upon you. These choices are mine. They’re a selfish answer to questions That have been shadowed under many resenting Voices. Those streets they tend to darken When the sun steps back to breath. My dear you have misjudged me, I am nothing but a child. And I fear I’ll stay that way a little while. But this road that I’ve invented, Is dark and weary too, It’s a venture that I’d never wish to wish upon you. And I’ve spent my time. Searching for answers I’ll never find. So maybe this is just to break what’s left of my life. So give me patience, Because you know I’ve needed some. It’ll take more than kind words, To fix what I’ve become. And give me courage, To face the days ahead. Though it’ll take faith, To heal what I’ve left for dead. And give me wisdom, To know where to go from here. Your words they bring comfort, When I’m drowning in my fear. You gave me strength, To walk away from a losing fight. You gave me a future, When you ventured into my life. (When you ventured into my life)

I’d never call myself a rockstar, 'Cause my songs are all so sub-par, And they never have much meaning to them… And I’d never call myself a fighter, But I’m also not much of a lover, I guess I got lost trying to pick between them, And I’d never call myself sad, I’d rather joke about issues then try to face them, But I guess in the end that is a bit sad… And I’d never call myself delirious, I just usually don’t know what’s going on, It’s as simple as that. This isn’t a song that you should sing to your children, 'Cause if you do then you’re probably raising them wrong… ‘Cause this is just a stupid song. Ya it's just a stupid song. I’d never call myself an addict, I can stop whenever I want to, I just don’t want to, But I guess that’s what an addiction does… I’d never call myself lazy. So I’ll tell people they’re all crazy, Instead of letting their words try to help me change me. Because how dare they care about me. And I’d never call myself a perfectionist, Except when it comes to other people's problems, 'Cause I always know just how to solve them. So I always make sure to tell them. And I’d never call myself a narcissist, But if my mirror was my therapist, He’d probably tell me to stop looking at him so much, And also that I should do more sit-ups. And also that talking to mirrors is pretty weird. But this is just a stupid song. This isn’t a song that you should sing to your children, ‘Cause if you do then you’re probably raising them wrong… ‘Cause this is just a stupid song. Ya this is a stupid song. I’ve never liked bridges, I just have this habit of burning them down. And I’ve never liked lifeboats, They have a habit of coming long after I’ve drowned. And I’ve never liked my attitude, Though I’ve got no one to blame, but myself And I’ve never liked my feelings, So I’ll just put them on the shelf. And I’ve never liked conviction, It has this habit of trying to change me. And I’ve never liked incognito browsers, they tend to tempt out the sin that is within me. I’ve never liked answering questions, See I usually just answer wrong, And I’ve never liked putting too much self-reflection, Into the lines of stupid songs. This isn’t a song that you should sing to your children, ‘Cause if you do, then you’re probably raising them wrong. This isn’t a song that you should sing to your children, 'Cause this much honesty might show them you're not that strong. But then again you shouldn’t believe me. 'Cause it's just a stupid song. This is just a stupid song. Just a stupid -

The road was very cloudy, Still I marched on. Following a bitter, but inspiring song. And at the end of roads, I’d give all that is left in me, To drive away these thoughts Of insanity. My path was uncertain, My direction unsure. My feet had grown accustomed To the pain they’d endured. And as my footing faltered, My courage stayed upright. ‘Cause I knew I’d come too far To give up this time. But the journey’s far from over, And hope is far away. So I’ll save all of my courage For another day. ‘Cause even without darkness I am blinded just the same. So I’ll hold on to what’s left And pray the rest is not insane. So I’ll choose to cast away, My methods of escape. And though they tempt me on, The choice is mine to make. ‘Cause if I stay I will not find The change I need to see, To rid myself these thoughts Of insanity. But the journey’s far from over, And hope is far away. So I’ll save all of my courage For another day. ‘Cause even without darkness I am blinded just the same. So I’ll hold on to what’s left And pray the rest is not insane. But the journey’s far from over, And hope is far away. So I’ll save all of my courage For another day. ‘Cause even without darkness I am blinded just the same. So I’ll hold on to what’s left And pray the rest is not insane. (The rest is not insane) Don’t wait, you cannot save me. I won’t stay, you’ll only break me. Don’t wait, you cannot save me. I won’t stay, you’ll only bring me pain. But the journey’s far from over, And hope is far away. So I’ll save all of my courage For another day. ‘Cause even without darkness I am blinded just the same. So I’ll hold on to what’s left And pray the rest is not insane. The night is falling soon, I haven’t got a shelter made. My thoughts deceive me, I’m addicted to their ways. I run in circles trying to find a better way, To break out of the cell they’ve placed me in, But here I remain. I trust in fleeting things, no wonder they all run away, I trust my instincts though they seem to always lead astray, It’s funny how pleasure runs a thin line with shame, So I’ll just watch as my ambitions bow to failure’s new reign. My mind was made for greater things, why do I choose this path, The answers found in a creator I would never ask, My shame enveloping my actions ‘til they all collapse, Insanity, it shadows any light I could have grasped. And I’m letting my guilt start to define me, It’s hard to move forward when I’m still facing what’s behind me, And though I’m self-aware of sin that’s taking over slowly, Catering these lusts has always been the thing to blind me. And that’s why I’m starting to fall for my dreams. They seem to live this life that I thought I was meant to lead. They seem to dance this line between my wishes And what’s real to me. And if I say they’re right, Then I am dead to rights Of what happens in this reality I’m starting to peer through the seams Of this constructed shell of me. It’s sewn together ruggedly, The scrapwork of my destiny. There must be something more for me, But every time I question, I am lessened To the point of insanity. Be tame my spirit, for I need you to be worthy. I am tired of returning to the urges of my body. I’m dirty, I run to things that only seem to hurt me While still claiming I want more For the same soul that will deter me. Be strong my beating heart, You have endured more shameful things than this, And I insist we mark ourselves for war, Enlist into this battle we have created With our own self-indulgent bliss. Perhaps we have been created For so much more than all of this.

I’ll take three steps forward, And two steps back, It seems I’m being held By this burden I’ve kept And I Don’t think I can lose it. I’ll set my eyes before me, Get my head on track, But I keep turning around To catch a glimpse of my past, And I’m Afraid I’ll pursue it. Under the weight of these confessions. Under the weight of these confessions. Under the weight of these confessions. Under the weight of these confessions. I am not trying to be someone that I am not. I’d be a fool if I thought I could pull that off. My heart it is beating so fast I just want it to stop. Show me Your vision and I’ll say it’s all that I’ve sought. I’ll say that I’ll give it all that I’ve got. But I think you can tell a liar. Silly me, Playing with matches, But never expecting the fire. Now I’m seeing It burn everything to the ground While I’m lost in desire, This is not who I’m supposed to be, I’m hanging close to the edge And approaching the point of just cutting the wire, So that I can freefall. It’s crazy, But I feel like I’ve been here before. The devil’s been knocking so loud I guess it’s only time before I go And open the door. Let him in like he’s welcomed, I’ve been finding it hard to repel him, I used to know just what to say, But of late I’ve been finding That turning away these temptations Is turning too seldom. This is not how it’s supposed to be, I pictured life through “supposedly visions” Envisioned by those who sought pleasures Enclosed to be opened by those who were hoping, I guess it was closed to me. I can see the sun setting, But I’ve got so many sins left to mention, Progress is seeming to pick a direction But it’s moving slow ‘cause it’s under The burden of all these confessions. I’ll take three steps forward, And two steps back, It seems I’m being held By this burden I’ve kept, And I Don’t think I can lose it. I’ll set my eyes before me, Get my head on track, But I keep turning around To catch a glimpse of my past, And I’m Afraid I’ll pursue it. Under the weight of these confessions. Under the weight of these confessions. Under the weight of these confessions. Under the weight of these confessions. Don’t tell me to turn around, I know what’s happened. Don’t say that these problems are lasting. ‘Cause you know I haven’t stopped And there’s more that I’ve dragged in, I just want them in the past tense. Bury them deep in a grave that I’ve fashioned, Fasten it tightly with every action Further ignoring the fact that I’m using A mind that it’s maimed and a heart that it’s blackened. I see the sun and it’s setting out there, I feel the dark creeping in on me And I know I’m not prepared, I will try to invoke a deep breath So that I can just whisper a prayer, You can bet I am scared Of what’s coming, Knowing what I’ll be confronting, Something inside me knows that I can’t get away from it, But then there’s another voice screaming That I should keep running. “Run. Run.” That’s what it’s saying to me. Everytime that I stop it reminds me of how I am weak. Of how I’ve got nothing to offer and no one to please. I usually notice the difference between the truth and the lies, But it getting so hard to see when the sun is retreating, I’m watching it steal away any last remnant of light. So I’ll go. Will I ever return? I don’t know. There’s a million questions that I will forego. Following voices that come from below. I’m chasing fruit that’s forbidden, And my conscience is seeming to lose all its fight. You say that you want me, Well if that is true then you’ll have to come follow me into The Night…

The light fades away, The sun steps down, the end of another day. Tomorrow seems so far away. When I spend so much time In the night's embrace. Was I born to be this afraid? In the night when all my fears are realized, I realize that I cannot trust my eyes, I realign what my thoughts tend to visualize. But it’s too vulgar to say. I wish that I could find myself some solitude so I could just Hide it all away. And bury it deep so it stays. So I never drift as far again, I know I’ve done some things That will need to be forgiven or pardoned, In the light I can push them away, But in the night they always tend to wander in again, It’s hard when there’s no one there to see you straying, Noone there to stop your mind from leading you astray, And my vision’s getting blurry as the light is being stranded, I hope you know this isn’t how I would’ve planned it out. ‘Cause when I cannot see, It’s hard to tell who I’m supposed to be. And when I’m blinded by fear, It’s safe to say that I’m not safe to stay Behind the steering wheel. And I’d say I have the right to this, ‘Cause it’s my life, so I’d say that I should fight for it. And I’ll put forward what my mind permits. Twisted metal and broken fists. And I’ll fight while I can still see Dear night, this is not the night you will conquer me, Cause I won’t go down that easily. (You can’t take me) Cause I won’t go down that easily. (You can’t take me) Cause I won’t go down that easily. You say you are, All I need. So light my way, And lead on. You say you’ll stay, Though I am weak, So light my way, And lead on. But I just can’t commit to it. I mean, is it insane for you to give your life For those who cursed your name? Maybe. Conflicted convictions, I am lost to my fictions, Blurry visions, These small cuts to my mind Are turning into deep incisions. Poor decisions, when I was younger And I didn’t have to face these sleeping demons, All of my thoughts were in agreement, Full of meaning. What a feeling. But now, I’m lost without a light, I need your help to last the night. I used to have one, I swear I did, It used to burn so bold and bright. But slowly it got ripped apart And faded to the blackness, With my heart, See that’s where it all fell apart. So here I’ll stand broken, battered, All of my dreams in tatters, Running far away from all that matters. Will you chase me? The dark is knocking at my door, These demons scream until I’m torn, My sin is heavy, But these are the things you felt Worth dying for. And I don’t even have a right to it, But it’s my life so I’d say that I should fight for it. And I’ll put forward what my mind permits. Through all its twisted brokenness. And I’ll fight while I can still see Dear night, this is not the night you will conquer me, ‘Cause I won’t go down that easily. (You can’t take me) Cause I won’t go down that easily. (You can’t take me) Cause I won’t go down that easily. You say you are, All I need. So light my way, And lead on. You say you’ll stay, Though I am weak, So light my way, And lead on. (Lead on) (Lead on) (Lead on) (Night fades, You light every dark way, Shining till the sun breaks, Into every new day) (Lead on) (You make every night fade, You light every dark way, Shining till the sun breaks, Into every new day) (You make the night it fade away, You light every dark shadowed way) (You make every night fade, You light every dark way, Shining till the sun breaks, Into every new day You make every - ) (You make the night it fade away, You light every dark shadow - ) You say you are, All I need. So light my way, And lead.

And these are wicked scars, But I know I’ll be alright. As long as I can stop the bleeding. And it’s a bitter world, But I know that I’ll get by. As long as I can find a reason. I know I haven’t been myself And I’m sorry, But life got in the way. The future holds a fear I can’t explain. And I know I haven’t been what you expected, So I’ll let you down again. I’d rather drown before you save me. And these are wicked scars, But I know I’ll be alright. As long as I can stop the bleeding. And it’s a bitter world, But I know that I’ll get by. As long as I can find a reason. I thought I’d give you all I am, Though I worried That you didn’t feel the same. So I began to tell myself I was insane. And I thought that I had put it all behind me, But I sometimes feel the pain. And it tears at every reason I have made. And these are wicked scars, But I know I’ll be alright. As long as I can stop the bleeding. And it’s a bitter world, But I know that I’ll get by. As long as I can find a reason. (Can find a reason) (Can find a reason) (Can find a reason) (Can find a reason) I feel I shouldn’t trust my eyes, They witness things that terrorize my mind, And when I’m broken down I’ll hide behind this cowardly disguise, To find out what I have been reaching for Is not what it is glamorized, Perhaps I’ll learn from every time I run out to that bridge side. But I feel your grace relentless, I can feel you in my bones. Though I still ran to that empty well To face my fate alone. ‘Cause I ready, To write the epilogue to this tragedy. But when I was rehearsing, You were surging to find worth in me. So maybe, this isn’t where it ends. Maybe I can find a reason To pull my mind out of that death again. Maybe I can be stronger Than I have been before, ‘Cause it seems that all I’m running from Could be all that I’ve searched for. Worth. You built me on purpose, So when I feel worthless, I’ll rehearse your verses. And everything that is versus what You are I will deter it. And when I feel I’m dying I’ll know you’re not done your work yet. And when I feel I’m dying I’ll know you’re not done your work yet. And when I feel I’m dying I’ll know you’re not done your work yet. And when I feel I’m dying I’ll know you’re not done your work yet. So captivate me. Let me see you more clearly. Tear apart this veil And unveil your will, Brand it on my heart before me. Drag me through the stones Until I need you more Than I have ever needed anyone Or anything this world could give me. Keep my mind to its design That you have placed within me. Still my heart and cure it Of its dark insanity. Set my path from it’s past And lead it to your glory. Let this broken person see your hope Shine through a broken story. You came for us though you knew We’d curse your very purpose. You came face to face with death And you made him forfeit. You chose to hang upon a tree, For every single soul that Said that you were nothing, Though you still said we were worth it. So maybe I’ll find my purpose In these worthy words I read. And maybe my prayers are more Than empty cries to skies and seas. And maybe my thoughts are more convicting Than they used to seem. ‘Cause every time I bleed I’ll think of every reason that you chose To bleed for me. ‘Cause every time I bleed I’ll think of every reason that you chose To bleed for me. ‘Cause every time I bleed I’ll think of every reason that you chose To bleed for me. ‘Cause every time I bleed I’ll think of every reason that you chose To bleed for me.

I’ve been talking in my sleep Of things I’m too afraid to dream. Of scenes that scar the makeup That’s been cracking at its seams. And I’ve been dreaming many things, An endless stream of memories Comes raging to the foreground When I start talking in my sleep. And I’ve been hearing melodies, Some foreign and some known to me, Some desperate for a soul to please. Oh, I’ve been hearing melodies. But they walk on, Oh they walk on, Ya they walk on, I watch them walk from me, When I start talking in my sleep. And I’ve been living in full retreat From the man I saw out in front of me. But you sought me out Through my discrepancies, And made me who I’m meant to be. And I’ve been looking out to the sea, And watching the storms crash around me. Oh, its wind is strong, but you found me When I was talking in my sleep. You made me to be who I’m meant to be, Now I’m not talking in my sleep. You made me to be who I’m meant to be, Now I’m not talking in my sleep. You made me to be who I’m meant to be, Now I’m not talking in my sleep. You made me to be who I’m meant to be, Now I’m not talking in my sleep I was talking in my sleep The night you got a hold of me. My confessions as pure as my heartbeat. Now I’m not talking in my sleep. Now I’m not talking in my Sleep.